Sick of It All

Today, I am...

• sick of being sick (physically)
• so tired of this ongoing situation. Sick of remaining silent (yet, I feel that this is still what God would have me do).  Sick of being the "bad guy" and being painted as such.
• really sick of the misinformed.  One person went so far as to ask one of my children if they thought for themselves in reference to this situation.  Seriously? (I love it when adults can't confront me, but go after my children.)
• so very, very tired of the jabs on Facebook (and even if I don't read it, others who think they are doing the right thing bring it to my attention.  Because, yes, even though names aren't mentioned, it is that obvious)
• weary of the other parties need to gather forces and cause divisiveness.  Rallying troops?  I left middle school too many years ago to count
• exhausted with the emotional and spiritual toll this is taking on me, my spouse, and the children

Today, I am also...

• thankful for God's faithfulness
• confident He has a plan for this
• remaining silent (except for here) because this is what I feel God is having me do and I am learning to trust Him more.  He is my defender.
• even though this is hard and hurtful my children are learning to laugh about it and love through it
• praying for change and it's no longer one of location, but of hearts and lives (including my own)
• learning to be patient and knowing that I may never see the outcome or resolution because it may be years away and that's okay.  God is in control and I am not.